Saturday, June 21, 2008. 4:12 AM . .
Im somewhat confused.
What is exactly my ambition?
When i was like abit younger... maybe sec 3?
I wanted to develop in the field of IT when i grow older.
Partly because im quite proficient at it, and computers/electronics to me is like second nature.
And I heard the IT sector is pretty lucrative and since i was so addicted to computer last time, so it is like my destiny liddat.
Somemore i heard if u suan geeks/nerds now. Next time u have to eat their shit for work. Thats quite true actually. Look at Bill Gates can already.
But the more i look at things now, the more i somewhat despise office workers lol. *No offence to anybody, this is just my personal views and i hope you respect them as i respect yours* Work 8-5pm, do endless paperwork, make urself look like a totally man-eating businessman, scaring little kids, making me think of United Abominations (a great Megadeth song with anti-UN lyrics), making me think of Symphony Of Destruction (especially the businessman from whatever sg company come to CHS to talk crap and waste my time. That guy literally reminded me of the President being shot in the music video of Symphony Of Destruction. A really great song though). Then you eat the bosses shit for meals, suck up and polish his boots just to earn your rice bowl, then backstab others just for that promotion or play some dumb retarded office politics. Increasingly i fear to become a office worker. Maybe i dont mind working as a freelance businessman?? But who knows.
**This does not apply to anybody working in spiritual environments eg. church. Instead i respect them.**
This is partly due to Eddie jioing me to pick up guitar at the end of year holiday at 2007. I picked up due to my recent liking of metal music, and somewhat got this thought from my ass that maybe i can be as great as Dave Mustaine. But it gets harder and harder. I am still at the begineer stage and yet i am getting owned everywhere. I cannot do alternate pickings fast without f**king up. Lots of stuff lah. Its like forcing your left hand to write when you are a right-hander. When i told my church frds when we were on a train ride home, and i told her that dream of becoming a guitarist playing on stage might fail, something she said impacted me. "no such thing as fail luh". Wow. Pretty idealistic i shall say. But that somewhat reignited the fuse inside me. CONTINUE PLAYING!! CONTINUE LEARNING!! DONT STOP!!!
KEVIN YEO!! STOP BEING A LAZY ASS AND CONTINUE DOING IT!!
And i have much to owe to my church for making me pick up the guitar again. I already given up this year at Feb. But picked it up after Easter again. Due to the desire to be on stage playing electric guitar one day. And i believe i can hand it over to the Lord who will help me develop the skills needed to glorify him by using the guitar and playing heavy metal.
IT is like my right hand. Guitar is like my left hand. And i am right handed.
But yet i want to develop my "left hand" too. Its a upward climb, but with the LORD, anything is possible.
Yeah.
Love,
Kevin
What is exactly my ambition?
When i was like abit younger... maybe sec 3?
I wanted to develop in the field of IT when i grow older.
Partly because im quite proficient at it, and computers/electronics to me is like second nature.
And I heard the IT sector is pretty lucrative and since i was so addicted to computer last time, so it is like my destiny liddat.
Somemore i heard if u suan geeks/nerds now. Next time u have to eat their shit for work. Thats quite true actually. Look at Bill Gates can already.
But the more i look at things now, the more i somewhat despise office workers lol. *No offence to anybody, this is just my personal views and i hope you respect them as i respect yours* Work 8-5pm, do endless paperwork, make urself look like a totally man-eating businessman, scaring little kids, making me think of United Abominations (a great Megadeth song with anti-UN lyrics), making me think of Symphony Of Destruction (especially the businessman from whatever sg company come to CHS to talk crap and waste my time. That guy literally reminded me of the President being shot in the music video of Symphony Of Destruction. A really great song though). Then you eat the bosses shit for meals, suck up and polish his boots just to earn your rice bowl, then backstab others just for that promotion or play some dumb retarded office politics. Increasingly i fear to become a office worker. Maybe i dont mind working as a freelance businessman?? But who knows.
**This does not apply to anybody working in spiritual environments eg. church. Instead i respect them.**
This is partly due to Eddie jioing me to pick up guitar at the end of year holiday at 2007. I picked up due to my recent liking of metal music, and somewhat got this thought from my ass that maybe i can be as great as Dave Mustaine. But it gets harder and harder. I am still at the begineer stage and yet i am getting owned everywhere. I cannot do alternate pickings fast without f**king up. Lots of stuff lah. Its like forcing your left hand to write when you are a right-hander. When i told my church frds when we were on a train ride home, and i told her that dream of becoming a guitarist playing on stage might fail, something she said impacted me. "no such thing as fail luh". Wow. Pretty idealistic i shall say. But that somewhat reignited the fuse inside me. CONTINUE PLAYING!! CONTINUE LEARNING!! DONT STOP!!!
KEVIN YEO!! STOP BEING A LAZY ASS AND CONTINUE DOING IT!!
And i have much to owe to my church for making me pick up the guitar again. I already given up this year at Feb. But picked it up after Easter again. Due to the desire to be on stage playing electric guitar one day. And i believe i can hand it over to the Lord who will help me develop the skills needed to glorify him by using the guitar and playing heavy metal.
IT is like my right hand. Guitar is like my left hand. And i am right handed.
But yet i want to develop my "left hand" too. Its a upward climb, but with the LORD, anything is possible.
Yeah.
Love,
Kevin